I feel like my jug of nugs has been depleted by someone other than me. idk tho.. jahahaha

finally slept. it was the best I could get

so many things are bothering me. and the fact that i can’t sleep in my own house is just the icing on this cake. changing and rearranging doesn’t hide the confusion I see. squeaky couches and whispering of unknown faces causing me no rest is unfair on this Wednesday at 4am.. rude awakening two days in a row.. trying not to lose all control. I know I have this power that is no lie.. but to use this power brings me tears and fears of the reactions I will receive. I just wanna sleep and wake up and be happy not angry. I miss sean. I just wish I could sleep sound. no distractions or unknown energies in my presence. I know this time is coming but as this time draws nearer, things are getting a little too much for me. people analyzing every move thinking its the right thing to do. fuck please leave I have 2 more classes left and I need this sleep. all I can do is sit here and not sleep. fuckfuxkfick I hate this anger i experience.